Happy Thanksgiving, 2008!
What I am thankful for (well, at least the things that pop in head at this moment in time)…friends, family, friends, friends (including boyfriend), health, having patience, recovery, and another holiday with non-distorted eating, ok, there are a lot more but that’s it for now.
I had a relaxing day. The boy and I hung out, went to an early Thanksgiving on the base at the Officer’s Club. I even sat down at the boy’s house and partook in a video game (what is this world coming to and it was a gruesome killing one, but at least I was in the military)…it was addictive and I actually might partake it in another time. I also partook in my 2nd James Bond movie of the month….ahhh, it was actually good.
I am still seeing Melissa on a monthly basis and things are going well, our sessions are full packed. Work is okay, my boss can be all over the place, but i am dealing with it and oh, thankful to have one job as I lost my second one a while ago. The biggest stressor in my life for a long time has been finances. I am not an elaborate spender, my underwear and bras are ancient and I am a budgeter but years of paying bills on time and acquiring a high mid 700 credit score, I have accumulated for debit then I can handle. A huge part of it was from medical bills, treatment over the past 10 years some of it that insurance did not cover, my cats immense vet bills, and some misc. like when i move I never have had in the past the first and last month, furniture, just things that have built up. I have taken this decision heavily, wisely and have taken legal counsel – and I will be filing for bankruptcy in January. I never thought I would be one of these people, but I am short every month and it makes me sick. You can judge me, it’s okay. I will have bankruptcy on my credit score for 7-10 years and my credit rating will drop. I am smart though I know I can build it back up. I am sure this looks oh so attractive to my boyfriend. I am saddened by this decision but know this will bring me some relief, relief of the past, relief of medical stuff, time to begin again. Another new beginning, that damn past of an eating disorder.
PS- I am addictied to Jon and Kate Plus 8..I can’t believe myself…
